these are the best years of our lives

What a terrifying thought to think. Once we get past the highest point of our lives, what are we supposed with ourselves? If we know its never going to as good as it was, then what’s the point? Sorry for giving you an existential crisis, but it’s something I think about a lot. I think about it a lot because I’m a teenager in high school, which most movies tell me is supposed to be the time of my life. To be honest, I really hope high school isn’t the best time of my life because its nothing like it is in the movies. I wonder how you know a certain time period in your life is the best one. For many people, this thought might be motivation to make every day as meaningful and happy as possible. If you can never tell when the peak of your life is, then you should make each day better than the last.

For some people, though, they know they’re in the best time of their life. I’m mostly talking about famous people here. I figure its pretty hard to top being loved by millions of people and doing what you love every day. Celebrities have to work and dream their whole lives to become a famous singer or actor, so when it actually happens, there’s nothing that could make them happier. But what happens when it all stops? Especially with the pop culture of today, where everyone is fascinated with the next new upcoming artist, people can’t be famous forever. What could you do to even compete with something that you dreamed of your whole life?

As I mentioned in my post, how interesting, I love learning about and appreciating musical artists. I care a lot for many of my favorite singers. I worry about them like a mother who’s sent her children off to college. Have they eaten today? Did they get enough sleep? Are they happy? Because of this, I worry about their future too. Many of my favorite artists have sacrificed so much to make their dreams come true. 5 Seconds of Summer dropped out of high school, and most kpop artists have to train for years to become singers. They probably worry a lot about what they’re going to do after it all stops. Are they going to stay in the field or try something new? What will make them as happy as being on stage? It’s terrible that the fear interferes with the happiest period of there life, also.

Most artists will say they want to be with their group forever, but, honestly, it’s not realistic. Like I said, people get tired of artists after a while, and there’s always the desire to start a family. Then, I guess the future for music artists should be about being content rather than trying to top their fame. I only know of one artist who wants to switch careers when he’s done being famous. He’s wanted to be a psychologist, so he’s going to work towards that. Obviously, being a psychologist probably won’t top his singing career, but it will make him content. I hope all of my favorite artists can be content in their future.



colors I associate with the zodiac signs

aries: red
→fiery, positive, respectable

taurus: dark forest green
→comfortable, agreeable, warm

gemini: white
→refreshing, youthful, exciting

cancer: sky blue
→familiar, sentimental, emotional

leo: orange
→bright, exciting, inspiring

virgo: leafy green
→safe, knowing, homely

libra: rose gold
→beautiful, regal, sweet

scorpio: black
→concealed, passionate, strong

sagittarius: purple
→powerful, elegant, meaningful

capricorn: tan
→down to earth, cozy, appreciative

aquarius: teal
→playful, unconventional, trendy

pisces: pink
→lovely, charming, classic

my favorite songs

☆ better day by 100%
☆ catch me when i fall by luhan
☆ don’t let me go by shinee
☆ emptiness by madtown
☆ eyes, nose, lips by taeyang
☆ fast pace by seventeen
☆ help me by brave girls
☆ i’m bad by nu’est
☆ madeleine by i.m and brother su
☆ mistake by drug restaurant
☆ my style by astro
☆ nillili mambo by block b
☆ once again by mad clown and kim nayoung
☆ please notice by christian akridge
☆ so what by sleepy
☆ starlight by mas 0094
☆ take what you want by one ok rock
☆ truly, madly, deeply by one direction
☆ wrapped around your finger by 5 seconds of summer

real eyes realize real lies

what’s up with eyes?

why do we put so much importance on those orbs in our face?

i look in the mirror and i love my eyes

and then i remember some people hate their eyes

is it because no one’s favorite color is brown

but everyone’s favorite color is green or blue?

wait a second

let’s go back to the mirror for a second

how can i love my eyes if the mirror only shows a distortion of myself?

how can people hate their eyes if the mirror only shows a distortion of themselves?

my favorite color is green

but my favorite eyes are brown

maybe it’s because all my favorite people have brown eyes

so i associate brown eyes with my favorite memories

or maybe it’s because brown eyes show depth and passion

while blue eyes just seem cold

brown eyes turn gold in the sunlight

and blue eyes turn blue in the sunlight

my blue eyes love brown eyes

why don’t brown eyes love brown eyes?

do brown eyes hate my blue eyes?

probably not in the same way that they hate their own eyes

probably out of envy

why do we say that blue eyes are more beautiful?

i say brown eyes are more beautiful

but i am not everyone

how interesting

We all have things we like to do when we have free time, things that make us happy. We call these things hobbies or interests. I’ve always been interested by interests and why different people are interested in different things. Part of the reason for this is because, as I said in my about me, I go through different phases of interests fairly quickly. The first major interest that I remember having was the band One Direction. I knew everything about them. I knew where they were from and all the words to all of their songs. This interest then shifted to their opening act, 5 Seconds of Summer. I looked up to them and was very inspired by their songs. My final major shift in interest was when I got into kpop. I love the variety of groups, and I listen to almost 50 artists. There is an obvious link between all of these interests, they are all music related.

Music is my favorite form of entertainment, most likely because of it’s variability of uses. You can have music on in the background to help you focus while you study or you can really listen to the lyrics to experience what the writer was experiencing. Before I got into kpop, I thought the only way you could receive the songwriter’s message was by listening to the lyrics. Now I realize that the way the song is composed can also express the emotion of the songwriter, as well as the emotion in the artist’s voice. I think kpop has given me a greater appreciation for all of the work that goes into creating music that people can relate to. Another thing that interests me about music is the artists themselves. I like learning about the artists as people. It’s interesting to watch how people express themselves artistically and see them live their dreams. Additionally, the majority of artists I like I see as kind and genuine people, so being a music fan gives me lots of inspiring people to look up to.

However, not everyone is interested in music, which is what is interesting to me. Some people have watched hundreds of movies, spend all of their free time watching TV shows, express themselves by writing their own music and movies, etc. People who enjoy movies or TV shows may look up to the actors as their role models similarly to how I look up to musicians. They may enjoy learning about those actors as people and how they express their emotions through their acting. Although this interest is similar to mine, I’ve never been as interested in movies or TV shows as I have with music. I watch some movies and a few shows casually, but I’m not invested in any actors to the point where I know lots of things about them and why they want to be an actor. I’ve always wondered how people could have different interests. What about movies is more interesting to some people than music?

I think interests are very important to have. They allow you to express your own emotions either directly or by watching other people do the same. Your interests give you a break from your day to day busy life. Those who are lucky get to combine their casual interests with their career. Most musicians’ main interest was music even before they achieved it as a job.  I enjoy learning what other people’s interests are, I feel like it can tell you a lot about the person. For me, I always ask people who like the same musical groups as me who their favorite member is. The person they look up to the most can show you what is important to them and what their passions are. This interest in other people’s interests and passions might explain why I want to be a psychiatrist. I really enjoy learning about how other people’s minds work. Someday, I might try to combine my interest in music with my interest in psychology. I could determine why different people have different interests or how music impacts the way people think.